Tonight I opened up a Dove chocolate promise that read
"It's OK to be fabulous AND flawed" and I just thought it couldn't have come at a more appropriate time. I had a mini meltdown in the car today (please tell me I'm not the only one that does this). I just felt so defeated. I'm trying. I'm trying hard. I'm trying my
best, but sometimes it doesn't feel like its enough. I'm not competitive but I'm also not a quitter...I keep trying until I get it right. But lately I haven't quite been getting it right. I think maybe sometimes I am too hard on myself because to strive for perfection is really a setup for disappointment. Every once in a while I need a reminder that I'm human and therefore flawed. It's ok to be flawed. If we weren't flawed, there wouldn't be a need for a Savior.
I also remember a sermon from Water's Edge Church (get it on itunes - WEC Podcast "Five Lies of the Devil" from October 30, 2011) where they did a series on the "Five Lies of the Devil." This particular week was the lie "You are not good enough." Rob Shepherd talked about the verse Romans 3:23, reminding everyone listening that no one is perfect, but God is. He also talked about Paul and his thorn in the flesh. But his next point blew me away. It's a little paraphrased, but you'll get the gist...
"Even if you worked really hard to be smart, someone would still tell you you're dumb.
Even if you went years without making a mistake, someone would point back to the one mistake that you made.
Even if you were perfect, somebody would crucify you."
Not feeling good enough is Satan's way of making you feel defeated. It's his way of preventing you from what God has for you. No matter what you do, how hard you try, how careful you are - you will never reach perfection. And even if you did (like Christ), somebody would still crucify you. I thought it was such a good point because it made everything click for me. It's not about being perfect, its about being strong enough in your weakness to reach out to God who is good enough.
I can't live my whole life wasting
All the grace that I know You've given
'Cause you've made me for so much more than
Sitting on the sidelines
I don't wanna look back and wonder
If good enough could've been better
Every day's a day that's borrowed
So why am I waiting for tomorrow?
Oh, I'm making this my moment now
To grab the hand that's reaching down to save me
Oh, You save me.